No white flag

I wanted to do a blog that comes from my heart. I really don't care if people think I'm crazy or over dramatic. Like I said on my last entry I try my best every day to be a strong and independent woman, but nonetheless I am human.

Now some people see me as a very weak and vulnerable person right now, and that is true. There are those times that you fall down and some people choose to stay down. It all depends on how you recover from it. How you deal with it and what you learned from it.

Ive made my share of mistakes and because of one that I did, I lost the love of my life. No matter what I believe he is the one for me. Call me crazy, but he is my soul-mate. The things we went through and the times we shared were just more than good times, we were building our foundation for our bigger union, aka marriage. I know this is just a BIG bump on the road and I have hope for us because I have faith in God and I trust him.

Normally I would never put any of my personal struggles for the public to know. I'm generally not an open-person and I almost never ask for help. I'm stubborn, prideful and sometimes short-tempered. The only reason I know come out and put my emotions on the table is because of all the times that I kept it in I was only hurting myself.

He made me better. He made happy. He made me a better version of myself and essentially that's what your partner is supposed to be. No matter through the hard times that come along with being in a relationship or the obstacles that you face everyday, as long as you have the person you love be there for you, you know that things will be OK.

After every storm, the sun comes out shining brighter than ever. After all the tears that you shed, a bigger smile is waiting for you on the other end. Never give up. Never say I can't. You always can do something, its just up to you to want it. But always evaluate it, not to much because then you'll just be confused. But really think about what made you happy at one point. If it made you happy then, chances are that it can make you happy again.

Have an open-heart and open mind. Don't be so quick to say no because you've already made a decision. All it does is block the ideas and emotions that your trying to run away from. They might have hurt you and they might be something you don't want to revisit, but if you've already so much time and effort into something, why give up? Why say no more?

I know I'm rambling on, but I felt like I just needed to get some things off my chest. Sorry that I've been Emo lol!